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All I do is chew, clamp, crunch, crush and cut ;D
Nah, just kidding.

Your average teenage girl ❤ Rachel, わたしはレイチェルです。
Emo = Emotive Hardcore ❤
You know that, don't you? Drill it in your minds. No nonsense in front of me.
And Adam Lambert is the absolute best :D
I feel evil&guilty for first betraying MCR, then BLG. :O
#1. ADAM + LAMBERT = !GLAMBERT fan
#2. Heels over head with BOYSlikeGIRLS
#3. In a relationship with MYCHEMICALROMANCE

Damn you, you know it.
For Your Entertainment Love Drunk The Black Parade Fearless The Fame

Faith Hope Grace Love

This is how I live, this is what I give, you're the one I want tonight.
All my life, I've been waiting. Past my time, procrastinating.

PeiXuan: Thanks for the attempt at trying to revive it. Next time I encourage you spam instead. :D
Cos sweetheart, no-no-no, nobody kn-kn-knows me or can find, mmm, time to be mine(:
Failed attempt at trying to recall the lyrics. Haha.
There's this person from Moscow that's been lately coming to my blog directly. Getting goosebumps. Lol. Just kidding.

I feel so shit for not being anxious over my homework or my upcoming blocktest.
Damn it.
I feel so horrible today, empty and distracted.
Not wanting to do anything.
I need a target. And a human one too.
Not so obsessed with Adam today.
I just feel monotonous today. Nothing and anything.
Yeah yeah I'm not making sense myself.
As promised, or maybe I didn't promise at all, here's the story that made me cry.
But today, I feel so unemotional, I can't make out any feeling.
So three cheers to my un-emotionality.

母亲是静候的小站自从父亲离开人世后，他就很少再回家了，尤其是近些年。偶尔，他也会想起那个独自待在家里，孤单且寂寞的继母。
　　他6岁时，父亲以感情不和，和母亲离了婚，受到挫折的母亲很快就去世了。
　　而父亲又给他娶回了一个继母。继母比母亲年轻漂亮很多，会讨好父亲。这一切让他觉得，继母就是导致父母离婚乃至母亲死去的罪魁祸首，因此，他开始对继母充满了怨恨，尽管继母一直对他都很好。
　　一年后，继母生了一个漂亮的妹妹，他心中的怨恨更深了。虽然，逐渐长大的妹妹总是跟在他身后，甜甜地哥哥长哥哥短地叫，弹驱散不了他对继母的怨恨。
　　有一天，妹妹在和他一起玩耍的时候，不慎掉进了一个废弃的水井里，当时只要他开口叫人，妹妹是完全可以被救出来的。但，他迟疑了，心想，就让她在井里多喝几口水吧，然后再叫人把她救上来，好泄自己心头之恨。这么一想，他就先跑到一边玩去了，这一玩就把妹妹还在井里等人救的事给忘个精光了。等到继母问他，妹妹在哪里时，他才惊出一身冷汗。
　　面对妹妹紧闭的眼睛和僵硬的身体，继母只是一个劲儿地哭，全然忘了责骂他，这让他一下子内疚了起来。
　　失去女儿的继母，一如既往地操持着家务，只是，对他既不太冷也不太热，他对继母亦是。他和继母，只有父亲在的时候，才会偶尔彼此说上几句不冷不热的话。
　　日子就在这种不冷不热的气氛中进行着。后来，他考上大学，走上社会，远离了父亲和继母。见得少了，自然也就不用在情感上顾虑太多。他想，只要父亲在，他和继母就不会有什么纠葛。
　　可没想到的是，父亲却突然患上了癌症，父亲咽下最后一口气时，他正在往家里赶的路上。关于父亲临终前交代了些什么，他一点都不知道。办完父亲后事，同族的一个堂叔，把他拉到一边，说，你父亲死时最不放心的就是你继母，他说，自己在的时候，你看在他的面子上，待继母还可以，他这一走，就保不准……他知道父亲的意思，是要他待继母好一点。
　　为了让泉下的父亲心安，他也有意地向继母示好，更何况，他对继母也有很大的愧疚。虽然很少回去，但他也会隔三差五地给继母寄些钱，一年也会打上好几次电话，虽然通话很程序化、很简单，但毕竟都做过了。要不是这次公司临时派他南下出差，火车正好要在他家附近的一个小站停靠5分钟，他可能很难会想起这么多的往事。
　　小站越来越近了，他的心一下子敏感了起来。以前每次回家，父亲都会带着继母早早地站在站台上等他；每次走时，丈亲和继母也同样会站在站台上，朝他使劲挥手。以前，他不在乎他们接送，尤其是继母。可今天不一样了，父亲没了，继母也不可能在。
　　他突然很想继母。继母也是母亲呀，继母在，他就不是一个没有母亲的孩儿……火车就在他的这种复杂思绪中，在小站戛然停下，他推开窗户，想朝外看看。
　　这是寒冬腊月的凌晨四五点，长长的站台上，除了执勤的铁路交警，没有一个人，显得冷清而寂静，这让他更加伤感，他与故乡匆匆相遇，却又是这般的凄凉冷清。没有熟悉的亲人，也没有阳光的喧哗。
　　他在心里重重地叹了一口气，然后打算将视线收回，可就在这时，他突然看见前面的站台上，来了一个推着流动售货车的老妇人，她一边推着车，一边挨个敲乘客的窗口，以此来兜售车上的食品，老妇人的头被一块厚实的毛巾包裹着，显得非常孱弱。因为没有戴手套，她推车的双手被冻得通红、发肿。
　　买东西的人很少，因此，那老妇人很快就来到他的窗口前，就在他和老妇人对视的一刹那，他惊呆了，她居然是自己的继母！她怎么会变成这个样子？她又是何时在小站当起了小商贩？
　　与此同时，继母也很快认出了他，她情不自禁地说了一句，我在这卖了四年多的货，天天想看我儿，今天，今天真看到了……
　　还没有等他回应继母的话，火车已经开始缓缓启动了，此时的继母也一下子慌了，不再说话，而是拼命地朝他手里塞矿泉水、饼干、鸭爪、方便面，一边塞，一边推着车跟着火车跑。
可火车还是跑起来，弱小的继母很快就被甩开了，再也看不见了。就在那一刹那，他所有的矜持和自尊，轰然倒塌——他把头伸出窗外，朝继母的方向，大声地喊着：“妈——妈！”

And these last few days, I had become infatuated with Pick U Up.
Strangely I didn't really like it much upon hearing. But the tune is stuck. And stuck there in my brain it shall be.
Fever, Music Again, Down The Rabbit Hole, If I Had You, Sleepwalker, Whataya Want From Me, No Boundaries, Voodoo, Time For Miracles, For Your Entertainment, Strut, Sure Fire Winners, Master Plan, Soaked, Broken Open, crap. I can't remember the last two. I just write according to what I remember. Damn damn. Ohmygosh I can't believe I forgot about A Loaded Smile and Aftermath! Damn damn damn!
Well now my emotions are coming back. Adam helps a lot, especially in making my day better. Just listening to his songs help...

Usual drills. :D (See my emotions are coming back! :DDDD Adam! *screams*)
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